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This is a discussion on What caused you to fall? within the Eating Disorder Discussion forums,----- First off: Olesya, GREAT idea for a topic! I know there's lots of us who have been through ED's...
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and then at times, I would have days where I would go through all of them...one day binging, the next day purging, the next day not eating at all...it was pretty bad. I had been going through eating disorders for a good 4-5 years. Mainly it was peer pressure (I wanted to be thin and "pretty"), a lack of motivation, a lack of encouragement, a lack of social inclusion...I just let myself fall into horrible habits, and I'm having to pay the price for some of them now.
To speak 100% truth, I didn't truly start coming out of my eating disorders until I started meeting some of you girls from the other website. I started messaging a few of them, got some feedback, and for once in my life someone was concerned with the way my eating habits were going. At first I thought, "Well what do you care?" but then I realized how serious it actually was. So I started doing my research, finally accepted that I had a problem, and willingly asked for help on how to get out of it.
So here I am, gone from eating a SOLID sub-800 calories per day to a healthy 2000+ Never been happier. (and my appetite is ferocious, LOL!)
What about all of you?
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"It's funny...the harder I train and better I eat.....the better my genetics seem to get." - G. Diesel
1) What ED's did you go through, and for how long?
[COLOR="Purple"]I have pretty much gone through a period of everything....I've starved myself for a few days, then binged...which led to 3hrs of cardio and starvation to make up for the binge. I have purged several times, but it was never a regular thing. I have also done the whole 'chew&spit' approach. My usual cycle was eating about 700cals a day and doing at least an hour of cardio a day then, every few days or so I would have an all out binge (I have no clue how many cals)....then it would start all over again [/COLOR]
2) What caused you to go through them?
[COLOR="purple"]I would say it was clearly my low self esteem that led me to try ANYTHING to be thin...as thin=happy. I never was thin....I was down to 100lbs but I was skinny fat, so I never 'looked' like I had an ED and to be honest I just thought I was dieting for a long time, I never realized how bad it was. I am a perfectionist, which can be a double edged sword....It makes me put my best effort into everything I do but at the same time, it leads to be being depressed if in my eyes I've failed. I can say it took me a long time to realize that my binges were directly related to stress, depression and emotions.[/COLOR]
3) How did you get out of them?
[COLOR="purple"]I do think its a daily battle. I am in a new frame of mind that I need to make health an effort. I have gone 6-7 months without binging but then I will slip and fall back into it...so I need to remind myself that this is something I need to work on all the time, similar to a drug addict. I am happy to say that while I will slip on the rare occassion, I have been able to get back on track rather quickly. Also, if I do slip up and binge...I get up, dust myself off and keep moving forward, I dont cut calories/over exercise to 'make up for it' anymore. I know that will just keep the cycle going. Thanks to the amazing women here and on FA as well, I've learned that support is the way for me to beat this....To deal with what is cause my struggles will help me succeed! I am happy to say that I now EAT TO FUEL MY BODY..I TRAIN SMART....I NOW BELIEVE IN MYSELF [/COLOR]
1. For a period of almost a year in college I was severely anorexic. I was 99lbs. at my worst.
2. My grandmother's death put me into a serious depression...And nothing is talked about in my family...I got yelled at periodically for not eating, but no one ever sat me down and dealt with the real issue.
3. I got very sick and ended up in the ER being testing for everything they could think off, including meningitis, because no one knew what was wrong and I wasn't truthful with the intake nurse when asked about my diet...Spending 48 hours on IV'S and being poked at helped me snap out of it....But even now 8 yrs. later, if I am super upset or stressed, I won't eat...Research says that's my way of controlling the situation...Doesn't happen often anymore though...
1) What ED's did you go through, and for how long?
I have been diagnosed with bulimia - starting from about 15 years old.
2) What caused you to go through them?
My trigger is OCD and being the biggest (curviest) of all of my friends. I honestly could not or would not control it. After some serious talks by some people I respected I admitted I had a problem.
3) How did you get out of them?
Ahh, I don't know if I will ever really be what is considered "out of it"... If I eat unclean for more than a day or two, no amount of medication keeps my bulimia at bay. For me I have found the medication for OCD works wonders but I still have to control not over compensating or overeating. There are times when I get super stressed I forget to take my medication and get sent on a spiral of weeks to months of every day binge/purge and massive exercise.
1) What ED's did you go through, and for how long?
Anorexia nervosa. Was diagnosed at age 14 and continued to struggle throughout my teen and young adult years. I was hospitalized 7 times, not including medical intervention and at my worst (at age 16) I dropped down to 67 lbs. This past relapse a few years ago I dropped down to 80 lbs. I was really sick with the disorder for a very long time and never thought I'd get better.
2) What caused you to go through them?
Low self-esteem. Depression. I thought losing a few lbs would make everything better, but instead I got caught up in a very vicious cycle, one that would end up occupying half the years that I've been alive. Once I developed the anorexia it became my identity and coping mechanism, making it that much more difficult to overcome.
3) How did you get out of them?
I had a nice period of recovery when I met my husband. We had a baby and I was able to stay recovered for several years during that time, but I relapsed pretty severely when my daughter was about 2. I knew that she needed a healthy mom and I knew I had to fight, but I had no clue how to get out of the cycle again. I tried therapy again, went back to see a psychiatrist for meds (and she wanted me hospitalized again, but I couldn't go through that), and those things got me strong enough to really fight. I put on a little weight and decided to try to lift weights, just to get "toned". Little did I know that the weightlifting would be my road to recovery. I quickly became hooked and the weightlifting took on a life of it's own. I'm 31 years old and I finally feel that I'm on a stable path. I'm the most recovered I've ever been and my daughter now has a healthy role model. I've gained about 20 lbs in the past few years, but I've been able to go at my own pace, on my own terms. And gaining primarily lean mass rather than heaps of body fat has helped me deal with the gain mentally.
Recovery IS possible for everyone. It's a hard road forward, but so worth it!
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1) What ED's did you go through, and for how long?
Anorexia nervosa. Was diagnosed at age 14 and continued to struggle throughout my teen and young adult years. I was hospitalized 7 times, not including medical intervention and at my worst (at age 16) I dropped down to 67 lbs. This past relapse a few years ago I dropped down to 80 lbs. I was really sick with the disorder for a very long time and never thought I'd get better.
2) What caused you to go through them?
Low self-esteem. Depression. I thought losing a few lbs would make everything better, but instead I got caught up in a very vicious cycle, one that would end up occupying half the years that I've been alive. Once I developed the anorexia it became my identity and coping mechanism, making it that much more difficult to overcome.
3) How did you get out of them?
I had a nice period of recovery when I met my husband. We had a baby and I was able to stay recovered for several years during that time, but I relapsed pretty severely when my daughter was about 2. I knew that she needed a healthy mom and I knew I had to fight, but I had no clue how to get out of the cycle again. I tried therapy again, went back to see a psychiatrist for meds (and she wanted me hospitalized again, but I couldn't go through that), and those things got me strong enough to really fight. I put on a little weight and decided to try to lift weights, just to get "toned". Little did I know that the weightlifting would be my road to recovery. I quickly became hooked and the weightlifting took on a life of it's own. I'm 31 years old and I finally feel that I'm on a stable path. I'm the most recovered I've ever been and my daughter now has a healthy role model. I've gained about 20 lbs in the past few years, but I've been able to go at my own pace, on my own terms. And gaining primarily lean mass rather than heaps of body fat has helped me deal with the gain mentally.
Recovery IS possible for everyone. It's a hard road forward, but so worth it!
Thank you so much! I think that each and every one of us here is an inspiration. It is so hard to overcome disordered eating and I think we've found a way out. That isn't easy to do, it seems like an elusive goal for so many.
Fitmommy, your story is SO inspirational! I am so glad you found your way out of that cycle...and a lifestyle that is good for you, for your body, and your mind!
Fitmommy, your story is SO inspirational! I am so glad you found your way out of that cycle...and a lifestyle that is good for you, for your body, and your mind!
Thank you so much! I'm so glad I found my way of it too. I never thought I would which just goes to show everyone that anything is possible.
What caused you to fall?
Never been happier. (and my appetite is ferocious, LOL!) 
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