Your Worst Binge Eating Disorder Episode

[alygrrl]

That's how I get. It's this feeling to be incredibley full that just nags at you. And while I am doing it I am happy, everthing tastes so good... then the second I am done I regret it and hate myself for it.

Originally Posted by kariev34

gross, i just binged Because of it, i actually just called in sick to work which is terrible! while this wasn't my worst binge i still feel terrible. So to come clean here is what i ate:
1 bowl of frosted mini wheats with vanilla soy milk
1 bowl of granola cereal with vanilla soy milk
1 bowl of honey bunches of oats with Vanilla soy milk
3 Luna bars with peanut butter spread on them
1 ice cream cone with cookies and cream ice cream
1 chocolate chip cookie
1 blueberry bagel with cream cheese

I feel terrible!!!! its been so long since i binged but this feeling has been knawing at me for the past few days and i just couldn't take it anymore.

[sweetpeach79]

Girl I'm sorry!!! I know this is hard but just shake it off! Put your head up high and really dig deep inside your soul to ask yourself why this happened.. What were you feeling right before it happened, how did you feel during and after this happened. If you can get to the root of why the cycle continues it will help you. Ya know I had a binge about 2 weeks ago. I ate a whole package of oreo cookies (the big family size double stuff oreos) and then a family size bag of tostitos and velveeta cheese dip. I had to really dig deep down to understand why I was doing this and what triggered it. Mine was triggered by lonlieness. I was using it to fill a void. I went to my parents house that weekend and they prayed for me. I have been doing much better since! All I can do is take it one day at a time and hopefully beat this monster! You can too! Remember today is a new day. Drinks lots of water and as hard as it might be just move around. I hope this helps you some and I hope your spirits are high in no time!

[Mloveb]

Originally Posted by kariev34

gross, i just binged Because of it, i actually just called in sick to work which is terrible! while this wasn't my worst binge i still feel terrible. So to come clean here is what i ate:
1 bowl of frosted mini wheats with vanilla soy milk
1 bowl of granola cereal with vanilla soy milk
1 bowl of honey bunches of oats with Vanilla soy milk
3 Luna bars with peanut butter spread on them
1 ice cream cone with cookies and cream ice cream
1 chocolate chip cookie
1 blueberry bagel with cream cheese

I feel terrible!!!! its been so long since i binged but this feeling has been knawing at me for the past few days and i just couldn't take it anymore.

Sorry hon, firstly hope your tummy feels better. And do take that look and try to figure out why, don't stress and ask why, sit down take a good look and try to figure it out.

[kariev34]

thanks ladies for the support. mentally i'm just trying to move on. I did run for 45 min which made me feel better. i just had a turkey wrap with some qucamole. i was going to not eat till dinner but i felt my blood sugar dipping down and began to get hungry. my binge was at 7 this morning so i decided i needed some real food and by denying myself i would set myself up to binge again. as i analyze why i binged i think some of it was undereating and some was just wanting to break all the diet rules i set for myself. ive decided to nix out a lot of processed diet foods i have been eating as i'm realizing that they aren't satisfying me very much. also, i've been eating only 3 meals a day of about 400 cals and i can feel my energy ups and downs throughout the day so i think its time to start incorporating snacks. i'm just moving forward past this bump in the road.

[Mloveb]

Good that your moving on and I agree your cals do sound a bit low. Good you discovered that now instead of letting it happen again by restricting yourself today.

When I was with Cathy Savage she always said if you mess up pick it back up at your next meal and forget about the last one. It's hard to do but it's better than either saying screw it I'll eat like crap the rest of the day or great I have to starve myself. =0)

[fit mom of 4]

Originally Posted by kariev34

thanks ladies for the support. mentally i'm just trying to move on. I did run for 45 min which made me feel better. i just had a turkey wrap with some qucamole. i was going to not eat till dinner but i felt my blood sugar dipping down and began to get hungry. my binge was at 7 this morning so i decided i needed some real food and by denying myself i would set myself up to binge again. as i analyze why i binged i think some of it was undereating and some was just wanting to break all the diet rules i set for myself. ive decided to nix out a lot of processed diet foods i have been eating as i'm realizing that they aren't satisfying me very much. also, i've been eating only 3 meals a day of about 400 cals and i can feel my energy ups and downs throughout the day so i think its time to start incorporating snacks. i'm just moving forward past this bump in the road.

Here I go again plugging Wendy Chant but SERIOUSLY take a look at her carb cycling plan "Crack the Fat Loss Code". It encourages eating real food, having nights out and eating regularly to keep blood sugar stabilizes, reducing and illiminating binges.
PM me and read my journal to know more...
[url]http://oliciouslife.com/forum/journals/1359-want-best-shape-my-life.html[/url]

[Nic902]

Originally Posted by kariev34

thanks ladies for the support. mentally i'm just trying to move on. I did run for 45 min which made me feel better. i just had a turkey wrap with some qucamole. i was going to not eat till dinner but i felt my blood sugar dipping down and began to get hungry. my binge was at 7 this morning so i decided i needed some real food and by denying myself i would set myself up to binge again. as i analyze why i binged i think some of it was undereating and some was just wanting to break all the diet rules i set for myself. ive decided to nix out a lot of processed diet foods i have been eating as i'm realizing that they aren't satisfying me very much. also, i've been eating only 3 meals a day of about 400 cals and i can feel my energy ups and downs throughout the day so i think its time to start incorporating snacks. i'm just moving forward past this bump in the road.

I'm happy that you can pinpoint what the problem was...thats half the battle. I think eating more frequent meals would definitely help...also, if you're only having 1200cals a day you are probably starving. Add a few healthy snacks and see if that helps you feel better.

[Gymbunny]

Originally Posted by Nic902

2 months is AWESOME!!! I had a little over 3 months binge free, but I slipped up....starting fresh, I've got 3 days under my belt now.

Each day is a victory..GOOD FOR YOU

That is a superb way of looking at things! Every day is a victory.

Originally Posted by kariev34

gross, i just binged Because of it, i actually just called in sick to work which is terrible! while this wasn't my worst binge i still feel terrible. So to come clean here is what i ate:
1 bowl of frosted mini wheats with vanilla soy milk
1 bowl of granola cereal with vanilla soy milk
1 bowl of honey bunches of oats with Vanilla soy milk
3 Luna bars with peanut butter spread on them
1 ice cream cone with cookies and cream ice cream
1 chocolate chip cookie
1 blueberry bagel with cream cheese

I feel terrible!!!! its been so long since i binged but this feeling has been knawing at me for the past few days and i just couldn't take it anymore.

OK kariev....I'm actually gonna say I'm proud of you. Yes this is a binge, BUT you didn't eat the whole box of each cereal. You didn't eat the whole box of cookies, the whole bag of bagels.

So I think you deserve a serious pat on the back for sticking at one of each. Really. I also think you need a huge hug and know that you are not alone.

[Perfectlycrazyfitness]

I never had a food binge until after I began I dieted twice for figure competitions. I really never thought about food until then. Then you have to think about food. Did anyone else experience this? My worst binge of late was cookies. I made some this weekend and probably ate 20 of them in a 24 hour span. My brain still tells me "hey, you might not get this for along time, eat up!" For this reason alone I reconsidering ever competing again. I love to cook, eat healthy foods etc. But I don't like my life to revolve around food. So funny because I didn't even binge after the shows. My cravings only were ignited after I tried a sleeping med that caused me to eat. Weird huh?

[Nic902]

I binge alot in the off season, for some reason during prep I have no problems with binging...but once the show is over I have no control. For me this isnt an issue caused by competing...its something I've dealt with for years before I ever stepped foot in the gym. If anything competing has helped me more than anything.

It sounds like competing isnt your problem...but the meds? Do you still take them?

[Perfectlycrazyfitness]

Originally Posted by Nic902

I binge alot in the off season, for some reason during prep I have no problems with binging...but once the show is over I have no control. For me this isnt an issue caused by competing...its something I've dealt with for years before I ever stepped foot in the gym. If anything competing has helped me more than anything.

It sounds like competing isnt your problem...but the meds? Do you still take them?

Nope. Only took them for a few weeks. Sleeping meds are crazy. Definately not for me!

I really think its the allure of eating foods that I find are 'off limits'. I totally attribute it to contest dieting.

[Nic902]

Originally Posted by Perfectlycrazyfitness

Nope. Only took them for a few weeks. Sleeping meds are crazy. Definately not for me!

I really think its the allure of eating foods that I find are 'off limits'. I totally attribute it to contest dieting.

Labeling food as 'off limits' or 'not allowed' can definitely be a trigger...have you tried adding treats to your diet? It doesnt work for me, but it does for many others.

[R2D2]

[QUOTE=Perfectlycrazyfitness;34646]I never had a food binge until after I began I dieted twice for figure competitions. I really never thought about food until then. Then you have to think about food. Did anyone else experience this? My worst binge of late was cookies. I made some this weekend and probably ate 20 of them in a 24 hour span. My brain still tells me "hey, you might not get this for along time, eat up!" For this reason alone I reconsidering ever competing again. QUOTE]

I can totally relate...I never thought much about food before competing. I had only ever been on 1 diet (weight watchers) and although I wasn't uber healthy I wasn't an obese monster and worked out with the weights 4 times a week. I didn't do much cardio. But generally I wasn't too badly off. I just didn't look how I wanted to I guess.

Then my friend competed and I got the bug. I thought I'd love the challenge! I competed and had a 100% on track diet and training regime. After the show I was NEVER warned about rebound. I just assumed that if I went back to eating 'normally' (HA!! What IS normal anyway??!!) that I would be fine. Well, I wasn't and the next contest prep was harder than ever. I got so sick of being overweight (cos I gained it all back and more). But when I eventually got back in shape for my next show I swore I wouldn't rebound. And to an extent I haven't cos I am in much better off-season shape now than last year, but I feel like I have developped an unhealthy relationship with food cos I think about it more than anything else. I am even looking at NLP (neuro linguistic programming). I have heard very good reports that it can help change and shape attitudes. I am also trying to understand the whole process. I have a few theories which I am researching...I will let you know if they are based on fact or my own fiction!

So, yes, i can relate completely. Wierd that your eating and the sleeping meds coincided with your problems...there may be some relationship to this. Or it may just be coincidence. It's hard to say.

Interesting thread though...I can realte to you all

[Jewel]

I had my worst binge yesterday.

It was absolutely terrible, and I'm so sick today, that I didn't even go into work. I still feel full and very bloated, and just sick to my stomach. I don't even want to think about all the stuff I ate last night...

Half a container of Pringles (husband's)
3 bowls of cereal
Entire row of oreos
1/2 lb of mozzarella cheese (I know, sick)

Then I just figured well, I fell off the wagon, so if I want anything I need to have it now so I can start fresh tomorrow. So I went to the grocery store, and got a lemon merangue (sp) pie, and ate THE ENTIRE top (basically everything but the crust).

YUK.

Why on earth do we do this to ourselves. How terrible, I feel so bad!

[Nic902]

I know you're feeling awful today but dont let it get you down...we all slip up, but you can pick yourself up and keep moving forward.

Tomarrow is a new day

[Wendy]

Hey Ladies- I was poking around and realized that I have dealt with these same issues. I don't ever recall what I eat during a binge, but one that sticks out in my head was one from 2006. I'd gone out with friends the night before and woke up not hung-over, just hungry from only eating a salad the night before with a lot of booze. I went to Carls Jr the next morning and had french toast sticks and a shake. Then I went to 7-11 and decided to have a food-in day and watch tv. Let me first tell you that I've had many days since then where I just ate my a$$ off-- like before I started comp prep. I pigged out for 5 days before I started. But this particular day I remembered that I ate:
French Toast Stix
Milkshake
Pint of B&Js Ice Cream
Entire bag of tortilla chips with
1 container queso dip
1 box of lucky charms and milk
1 package of donettes

I used to really go for the crap back in the day. Nowadays I will end up eating like 1 lb of salted cashews and a whole rotisserie chicken, a microwaved burrito, something with jam on it, and then cereal. Always finish strong with the cereal!

Its so ridiculous!

[Nic902]

When I binge I always find myself in a box of cereal..What is it about cereal?!!?

[stablesgirl]

That's so strange -- I have to stop myself from eating bowls and bowls of cereal. Maybe it's because I always have it in the house. I don't buy cookies and things like that cuz I know I'll eat them... but cereal.... cereal is always right on top of my fridge beckoning to me.

[Nic902]

Originally Posted by stablesgirl

That's so strange -- I have to stop myself from eating bowls and bowls of cereal. Maybe it's because I always have it in the house. I don't buy cookies and things like that cuz I know I'll eat them... but cereal.... cereal is always right on top of my fridge beckoning to me.

I have cheerios post workout, so when I do slip and binge...it usually starts with handfuls of cereal, and then I just keep going until I finish the box

[Wendy]

I don't know what it is. I will eat Lucky Charms if I am planning to have a cheat meal, but really it doesn't matter. I eat Fiber One and DH eats Kashi Go Lean Crunch Honey Almond, and I think that if I've already blown it, I might as well enjoy DH's cereal, which is just more interesting than mine. And since one good turn deserves another I just end up sprinkling extra chopped pecans, dried fruit or coconut in it, and topping it off with chocolate sauce. Then there's the whole milk imbalance thing. If you've got too much milk then you add more cereal... what a mess!