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This is a discussion on Your Worst Binge Eating Disorder Episode within the Eating Disorder Discussion forums,----- Ok, I admit that I have battled binging and still have episodes once in a while. For me, it just ...
Ok, I admit that I have battled binging and still have episodes once in a while. For me, it just doesn't stop all day. I can eat whatever is in front of me without stopping, like it can be a 3 cans of tuna fish even. Doesn't matter, but it seems I can't stop myself.
My worst one was probably the time I ate 2 quarts of Ben & Jerry's, an entire block of raw cookie dough, and a few hours later, nearly the whole jar of Nutella WITH French bread! I was sick after, so I purged (without meaning to do it, but I couldn't hold it all in). THis is all so personal, but I know no one will judge here. Thank you for giving us a place to share our most personal experiences, OL.
I can't remember my worst, but I think one of my last worst ones was in 2006. Something to do with cheese, white bread, fish sticks, mayo, ketchup, nutella, ice cream & crisps. Anyway I remember feeling like one of those heroin addicts getting my fix. Actually I feel a strong sympathy/empathy for drug addicts from going through this. When I think about my bad episodes I have two opposing feelings. One is I get shaky just thinking about it, shaky as in I want to do it, the other is disgust. Even to this day.
I don't recall ever binging on food, but coffee has been a problem. I remember on one occasion I went all day without eating but I drank six pots of coffee. My whole body was shaking so much I couldn't even write. I ended up very sick and had a terrible headache.
I ate an entire ginger bread house with my bare hands
After pizza
THE HOUSE WAS F-ING STALE but I could NOT stop!
I laughed when I read this but probably more cuz I can REALLY identify... I am still laughing but I know it is really not funny. These are demons I fight daily. Don't know why I have these urges but I do.
I am getting much better... everyday baby steps...
When I think about my bad episodes I have two opposing feelings. One is I get shaky just thinking about it, shaky as in I want to do it, the other is disgust. Even to this day.
I still deal with feelings like this too...I have moments where I WANT to binge, but then at the sametime the thought of it makes me ill.
OMG. A coffee binge.. I don't even know if I could do this, you would feel so shitty. I bet you had a minor caffine overdose..
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Originally Posted by KatieKate
I don't recall ever binging on food, but coffee has been a problem. I remember on one occasion I went all day without eating but I drank six pots of coffee. My whole body was shaking so much I couldn't even write. I ended up very sick and had a terrible headache.
Like Nic I can't remember my worst one...
but for me they always happen after I was dieting and they would go something like this:
brownies, cookies and chocolate bars
followed by
a dozen doughnuts split with the bf for breakfast.
follwed by pb and banana sandwich
then a slight break
then a buger, fries and milk shake
then over to the kitchen to eat a few more brownies and 2 more rows of cookies... and so on...
if I didn't have the goodies in the house it would simply be slice after slice of bread with pb or bananas dipped in mounds and mounds of pb.... or pasta with jarred tomato sauce until I couldn't breath...
I ate like I was never going to have those foods again...
Good to know I am not the only one who pairs random things...
My worst episode had to have been when I purged 6 times in one day... I ate dinner and then had a box of lucky charms, purged, ate 4 biscuits, purging after each one, and then at a pb&j and purged again... not sure what I was thinking but it got to the point where I would eat one thing off and throw up...
Other times I would eat a large pizza, an order of breadsticks, the entire carton of ice cream and a bag of oreos... My main trigger is I top it off with a pb&j because for some reason after that I can throw up easiely...
This one was a couple years ago but it was 8 bean burritos, 2 nacho bell grandes with xtra nacho cheese xtra sour cream, 2 hot and spicy chicken sandwichs, 1 pint ice cream, then my home made mashed potatoes with sugar butter and ham and peas alot of it.
My x bf just came home on Vday after I took day off to do something special I spent about 1K on him and he didn't even say hi to me when he came home. He ran to computer room and tried to search for naked pictures of an x of his online. I found out while he was in shower I went to look why he ignored me. I flipped out left ate and ate then came home and ate some more. I wished I could purge but couldn't because I knew that made what I just did even more unhealthy and I have to live with the consequenes of my actions. Honestly, I thought about purgeing alot when Id id stuff like this but never did.
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I think about purging after too, but I can never seem to make myself throw up. I've even got to the point where I am infront of the toliet, but I stop myself for some reason. Then insted of being happy that I stopped myself from purging I would feel worse for not un-doing the binge.
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Originally Posted by Mloveb
This one was a couple years ago but it was 8 bean burritos, 2 nacho bell grandes with xtra nacho cheese xtra sour cream, 2 hot and spicy chicken sandwichs, 1 pint ice cream, then my home made mashed potatoes with sugar butter and ham and peas alot of it.
My x bf just came home on Vday after I took day off to do something special I spent about 1K on him and he didn't even say hi to me when he came home. He ran to computer room and tried to search for naked pictures of an x of his online. I found out while he was in shower I went to look why he ignored me. I flipped out left ate and ate then came home and ate some more. I wished I could purge but couldn't because I knew that made what I just did even more unhealthy and I have to live with the consequenes of my actions. Honestly, I thought about purgeing alot when Id id stuff like this but never did.
I think about purging after too, but I can never seem to make myself throw up. I've even got to the point where I am infront of the toliet, but I stop myself for some reason. Then insted of being happy that I stopped myself from purging I would feel worse for not un-doing the binge.
I have such a natural anti-gag reflex. I've been where you are, stabbing my self in the throat and not being able to make it happen. I sat there thinking about it thinking it was a good thing that I didn't start this habit. Just about nothing will make me gag or vomit. Drinking, sickness or finger in my throat.
I am the same way except when I am drunk...then I throw up all too easily
But I guess it's a good thing that I can't just make myself. It may have increased the binging 10 fold.
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Originally Posted by Mloveb
I have such a natural anti-gag reflex. I've been where you are, stabbing my self in the throat and not being able to make it happen. I sat there thinking about it thinking it was a good thing that I didn't start this habit. Just about nothing will make me gag or vomit. Drinking, sickness or finger in my throat.
I am the same way except when I am drunk...then I throw up all too easily
But I guess it's a good thing that I can't just make myself. It may have increased the binging 10 fold.
I hear you and agree. I just keep saying, I am so lucky I can't make myself do that, well I wouldn't now but then anyway.
I had a pretty bad binge on friday I dont remember everything but some of it was...a box of cereal, a half tub of oats w/ pp, several protein bars, a box of peanut m&ms, a box of rasienettes, a box of reese peices, some doritos, some raw pasta, tortillas w/ cheese, sprinkles...there was other handfuls of things in there too. While, I have purged occassionally when I was a teenager...it wasnt something I did very often...maybe 7-10times ever. But, when I do binge, I want to purge just because I KNOW I would feel better physically if I got all that shit out of my belly...but I dont do it.
I recall one time when I was anorexic, eating so many saltines with ketchup and mayo. EWW.
second the EWW
Most of my binges are on "clean food" - always alcohol induced though
usually starts with a salad, then will accelerate to wanting something sweet, usually cereal. And not just any cereal - cereal with protein powder, pnb, almonds, etc. The salty sweet concoction.
I once ate nearly a whole container of coconut oil and pure bran crackers. Felt HORRIBLE for days
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