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I'm sure you are all asleep now. But I'm not sure what's going to happen to me in the next hour, trying so hard to resist.
Husband & I just went through a little something, well something from the past, that I'm learning to let go. Nothing he did. Anyway it's all ending happily enough but I feel a little drained.
Now there's my father who's been getting worse & worse since my wedding last oct 08. He's lost 30lbs in the last month and he certainly didn't need to. He's in pain all the time.
Next problem, work, major fuck up. The ones I dread all the time, the dreading just hang over my head waiting for shit like this to happen.
I stayed home from work these last two days, actually kind of glad I'm not in today. Anyway all I can think about now is going to get something to numb everything, just for a few hours. Just thinking about it is driving me insane.
I have to be strong, I'm trying to watch Angel (actually never really watched it before, I prefer girls that kick butt, so used to watching guys do it) to take my mind off of it.
Sorry your having alot of stress right now at least you reconize it. Instead of eating can you write out your feelings and mull over them. Read a book or go outside and walk and don't think about any of it.
Hope your OK hon!!
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Thanks Nic & MLove. Well I sort of gave in, just peanut m&m's, I've been craving them since Sunday anyway. I figured at least there is protein in them. So this was more like a big ooopsie in the diet instead of a binge. At least they are out of my mind (for awhile).
And thanks Nic, it really meant a lot to me knowing that I've helped you. And of course if I can help you & I have not even met you yet, surely I can help myself. Less than 3 years left in staying in this country.
I'm feeling rather vulnerable but in a good way. I think maybe I only have about 3% more to open up fully to my husband. But the last time I saw my dad I wanted to open up as well, but just couldn't. I guess when I see him at xmas, I'd better do that. I think it'll be his last one, not fully sure of course, but he's turning 87 next year, 3 heart attacks & strokes & what not. Funny thing is I asked my mother if he would take his dog (see Brook in my album), just don't know how I'd get him from North Carolina to Vegas.
Take a few minutes by yourself to write a list of 3 personality traits you have that you're proud of, and also write recent situations where you used them.
They points don't have to be big. It could even be something like this:
- Resourceful--I created a new exercise substitute when equipment was unavailable and had a great workout.
- Compassionate--I gave up my seat on the bus to an elderly lady.
You get the idea.
If you still don't feel distracted or more positive, then start listing out nice things people have done for you lately, even if they're small (e.g. holding door open, picking something up for you that you dropped).
I've been a bit stressed too, lately, and it's easy to let the negatives outweigh the positives. I find refocusing on what's good works wonders for my outlook!
Either way, if all else fails, I'm sending a big hug your way!!
Your welcome and I am glad you jut had a treat instead of a all out buffet... Hehe sorry that is what I call my binging, I step up a buffet in the kitchen, is what I tell James, it usually adds so humor to it.
Opening up is so hard to do! Sometimes it's just a matter of spitting out the words. Can you write a letter to him maybe ?
Epona, I am so proud of you for not going completely crazy. Sometimes we need small craving quenchers to get us through. You have awknowledged that you were craving something for a reason... sounds emotional.... so keep yourself attuned to that. Find other coping strategies. You are one step ahead when you know WHEN and WHY you are having binge cravings.
And hunny... [SIZE="5"]I OWE YOU BIG, NO,... [SIZE="6"]HUGE[/SIZE] FOR LEADING ME HERE[/SIZE].
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Your welcome and I am glad you jut had a treat instead of a all out buffet... Hehe sorry that is what I call my binging, I step up a buffet in the kitchen, is what I tell James, it usually adds so humor to it.
Opening up is so hard to do! Sometimes it's just a matter of spitting out the words. Can you write a letter to him maybe ?
Perhaps I will write to him, I'm awful about sending letters though.
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Originally Posted by fit mom of 4
Epona, I am so proud of you for not going completely crazy. Sometimes we need small craving quenchers to get us through. You have awknowledged that you were craving something for a reason... sounds emotional.... so keep yourself attuned to that. Find other coping strategies. You are one step ahead when you know WHEN and WHY you are having binge cravings.
And hunny... [SIZE=5]I OWE YOU BIG, NO,... [SIZE=6]HUGE[/SIZE] FOR LEADING ME HERE[/SIZE].
[SIZE=4][COLOR=Red]YOU[/COLOR] saved [COLOR=red]ME[/COLOR][/SIZE]
Ok you are making me blush. We are all lucky to have found this site. It's just too bad we all have to be virtual. I'm feeling a bit better but scared, scared to go into work tomorrow.
And I'm angry, I hate those reports & the whole processing, too bad the wrong information was sent out to 63 hotels and head office noticed. The thing is it was so glaring obvious and I looked at it a few times. I'm mad at the way things are done in my office
Epona...good on you for recognizing your stressors. A few m and m's in the long run, are no big deal. I really think Alpha's suggestions are helpful when I am feeling "bingy".
Take a few minutes by yourself to write a list of 3 personality traits you have that you're proud of, and also write recent situations where you used them.
They points don't have to be big. It could even be something like this:
- Resourceful--I created a new exercise substitute when equipment was unavailable and had a great workout.
- Compassionate--I gave up my seat on the bus to an elderly lady.
You get the idea.
If you still don't feel distracted or more positive, then start listing out nice things people have done for you lately, even if they're small (e.g. holding door open, picking something up for you that you dropped).
I've been a bit stressed too, lately, and it's easy to let the negatives outweigh the positives. I find refocusing on what's good works wonders for my outlook!
Either way, if all else fails, I'm sending a big hug your way!!
Ah I almost forgot to reply to your wonderful suggestions. I think I'll need to do that tomorrow. For some reason I just couldn't face it today. I had to have my little freak out & then I hid in denial.
Alphas suggestion is great...I'm going to do that too!
I'm so proud of you...M&Ms is no big deal! You had a sweet treat but you DID NOT binge and that is so important. You have been such a tremendous help to me and I hope you see the impact you can have on others...you are a special person...be kind to yourself
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