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This is a discussion on Overcoming ED... within the Eating Disorder Discussion forums,----- I have started a group for those of you are recovering from an eating disorder, think you may have one, ...
I have started a group for those of you are recovering from an eating disorder, think you may have one, or are just curious about it.
Eating disorders are pretty common among athletes - especially ones where leanness is considered a factor... The goal of this social group is to provide information and gain encouragement - because we are not alone.
Sometimes exposing the one thing we try to hide to the light reminds us the skeleton in our closet is just that - a skeleton...
If you go to my profile you will see it - I am not sure how else to find it but if you pm me I can add you...
An enormous number of ladies have emotional connections with food that manifest themselves in different types of eating disorders; it's about time we talk about it and help support those of us dealing with them.
If you can identify, join the group and speak up right here in the forums; we're all here to help each other!
Today is day 14 of no episodes for me. YAY!!! I just had a "treat meal" of a peanut butter and jam sandwich, and was so impressed that I did not over eat, did not even feel the desire to. But now my dad and husband are being weenies and totally stressing me out with their bi7ching and complaining... ugh! I need to get through today, it will make 2 weeks... wishing i had a punching bag right now, super frustrated, not sure how to deal. Just needed to vent.
Today is day 14 of no episodes for me. YAY!!! I just had a "treat meal" of a peanut butter and jam sandwich, and was so impressed that I did not over eat, did not even feel the desire to. But now my dad and husband are being weenies and totally stressing me out with their bi7ching and complaining... ugh! I need to get through today, it will make 2 weeks... wishing i had a punching bag right now, super frustrated, not sure how to deal. Just needed to vent.
Great idea thanks I suffered with anorexia when I was younger at the time there wasnt much info around for people who still ate a little bit but exercised 7 or 8 hrs a day so it was tough. I dont think it ever leaves you and its hard for partners and friends to understand, I'm at a point now where I need a rest from competing and training so much as my body is struggling this time with holding on to muscle and fat loss however on the other side I love competing as I know I have to control my eating etc etc and i have panic attacks thinking about not competing, sad and I wish I didnt but I'm actually more scared than anything what I will be like in 8 weeks when all my comps are over.......
Even though I became a member of the ED support group, its not allowing me to post. What am I doing wrong. I just binged and would love some support from you ladies over there.
Even though I became a member of the ED support group, its not allowing me to post. What am I doing wrong. I just binged and would love some support from you ladies over there.
I had to accept you and I did! It should allow you to post now.
I'm about to step in to my dream job of helping others with nutrition, and I'm finding myself being a horrible example! It's like I'm out to prove to ME that I cannot do this. I binged on blueberry bagels yesterday, and then it was downhill from there. My man is working 16 hour days and it's been me and the girls almost 24/7 for the past 2 weeks since my comp. He's been pressuring me to make money now that those comps are over (one of the main reason he supported me doing them) and that's been stressing me out. Even though I'm taking anti depressants, when I'm under uber stress and feel stuck, I find myself turning to food for relief.
My main dilemma has been how to make money and still spend as much time as I can with my children. And then on top of that how to deal with feeling like all I'm good for is keeping kids and sex. When he told me the other day that he wanted me to be fully "self-sufficient" and not depend on him to take care of me and the girls, it sent me into tailspin mode.
God answered my prayers though, when first day back at the gym, I was asked to become the main nutrition coach. They know my history, and I've worked there in the past, and they were willing to let me keep the kids in the childcare. I also get to set my own hours.
So this is all good, and tomorrow I'm bringing in a load of stuff for my new office so come Monday I can start with a bang,.... but instead of being relieved and rejoicing, I go and OD on food! Did good for a while after posting about the blueberry bagels in my journal, then it all went down hill.
Here I am a newly hired nutrition coach, and I go and binge my brains out! Wah, wah, wah.... :P
But looking back, I always seem to do this right before I have a breakthrough. The sucky part is that I see this AFTER I go nuts and freak out with food. Why don't I see this before?
I've been in "dead" mode with my marriage the past few weeks. We are ships passing in the night, and seems like all he really wants from me is sex. Like I'm becoming a hollow shell.
I got a not this morning that explains his view of our situation and his thoughts about my new work. Nothing like what his actions have show. Do I rejoice? No, after talking to him on the phone (he gets home and leaves during hours I'm sleeping), I go and eat.
Well, the sugary stuff is out of the house, now, some in my belly and some in the trash and yard. All we had was Abby's nearly gone hershey's syrup, nestle strawberry quik mix, and plain old white sugar. But I'm a creative gal, and it doesn't take much for me to figure up a way to do some damage!
I'm in an awful mood! Not mean, but definitely not a happy camper, and hopeless? yeh, though I know I have no reason to feel this way. Bodywise, I can undo whatever damage I've done these past couple weeks just by not binging and getting back in the gym. But emotionally, I'm needing a boost.
haha, if someone could get drunk off diet doctor pepper, i would definitely give it a go! I must have downed 4 liters of that stuff in the past day and a half while trying to drown my sorrows. :P
So I'm cutting out stuff for my new motivational board, writing down my goals, and copying quotes from the net. Hoping that my emotions will follow the motions I'm taking...
Sorry to barf all this on ya'll! But more than anyone, you ladies understand how I'm feeling.
Ah Eyes, I can completely understand why you binged even during this happy transition. But its a transition, you'll get through it and once you are on your schedule things will settle down, you'll have a nice routine. It's exciting, what you need & have been looking for, and all that. Take some nice deep breaths!
I don't know, it sounds like Eli is very capable of telling you what he needs, I hope you are doing the same to him.
Its strange that even though in our right mind we "KNOW" that binging is not the answer to anything...relationship issues, work, stress even when we are happy...yet, we cant help but fall into these patterns.
I think you'll make a great nutritional coach, you know all the ups and downs and can offer priceless insight! Like you said this always happens before you have a breakthough....which means, GOOD THINGS ARE HEADED YOUR WAY!!!!
Get busy making that board and all those things will happen for you!
Being a teacher in high school, I encounter many disorders...everything from cutters to bulimics. I have a 10th grader who is a struggling bulimic. You would never know if she didn't tell you or trust you with the information.
Eating disorders are rampant everywhere. How we help others is through educating ourselves and know the signals to trigger responses to the silent out cries most feel.
For more information on how to identify or help someone suffering from bulimia, here's a website wealthy with healthy information:
WOW. I think I suffer from an ED in the sense that my relationship with food is not a heathly one. I am obsessive in every aspect. I obsess when I eat well and I obsess when I don't. I have had times when I could not wait to go to a function for "the junk". I am like a drug addict when it comes to sweets.
I am trying everyday, very hard to deal with these issues. Not to sure why I have them. I knw there are certain things in my life that led to some of my bingeing but not sure why I go as crazy as I do. The worst for me was just mid October. I had a point where my eating was so crazy, binges all the time and I was feeling like I was in a downward spiral. I was walking with my husband and I finally said I need help. I am out of control and I dont like it or want to be this way. He has helped me so much in trying to tackle this issue and the demons that are the real underlying reasons I do it.
This is a life long issue I feel I will have to deal with. I would have never thought I had an ED, but really just because I don't have anorexia or bulimia, my relationship with food is unhealthy and I am trying to stop that relationship before it consumes me.
I love this site.
I get in a "food" mindset when I restrict too much, FitMomof4. Do you restrict?
I was restricting carbs too much I think. It was also my "restricting" state of mind. I know now I am choosing to eat clean and not eat the junk because I know how I feel after I do both physically AND mentally. I really am begining to realize that the "junk" may not be worth it. I am really learning to enjoy the good clean food I have been eating and not feel like I am missing out on something.
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